A Rollercoaster Ride

I must admit that I had a hard time during the first few days of Cris and I being a couple. Its also true that whenever I hear the phrase "We need to talk," it gives me the shivers... I really can't blame her for that. I knew that she was having a hard time herself. I was her first boyfriend after all (lucky me) ... What really frustrates me are those people who kept on intervening, as if they are the ones involved in the relationship. What's worst is that they aren't even our relatives... geez... such nosy individuals. Of course, they didn't know (probably until now) that Cris told me everything about it ... the comments, the stories, and the lies that they told against me. It was really sad... so much black propaganda ... I would have understand if I had done something bad against these people, but as far as I knew, I did my best to help them... to find a job, to train them, to fight for them ... Geez.... THANKS A LOT!

Anyway, like Cris mentioned previously, she tried breaking up with me the second and third day... It was quite difficult to face... I didn't really know what to do ... I did call some friends to seek comfort but they kept on telling me to fight it.... I even remembered my friend Olive telling me that if Cris broke up with me, she'll get really mad at her... but then again, she told me that Cris wouldn't do that... Glad that I still have a number of good friends .... "Loyal ones" to back me up , believe in me, and try to help me be strong ...

Of course, there was much talking between Cris and I... I do understand the confusion she was feeling at that time... I need to be patient... I need to be strong... and I need to believe that we have a great future ahead of us... Whenever I was with her, I tried to be brave... tried to show her that I'm worthy of that decision... but whenever I was alone... tears would also fall from in my cheeks, praying that she remains strong and firm with me...

There's also the fact that she hasn't really told her parents about us... Of course, they knew that we became good friends, but as a couple... a bit more complicated I guess. Cris told me that she'll just inform her parents when she's ready. The only one she confided to was her sister... There was another person who found out about us... one of her officemate/suitor (that time). If I remember it right, he got to know about it by accident. Actually, he was one of the first person outside the family who got to know about us being a couple already. Probably Cris can tell you more about it... hehehe :p

Another thing that happened that's probably worth mentioning is the day after she said yes to me... Probably between 5:30 to 6 PM, I was walking towards her office to pick her up... to my surprise, there she was at the underpass with a bunch of her officemates, in between two other guys, who tried to court her... I was a bit shocked... Obviously, they weren't aware of what had happened the night before... except for one of them (still in-denial I guess)... I didn't know where they are going... I sneaked behind Cris and tap her shoulders... She was really surprised to see me... She told me that her officemates invited her to the mall to celebrate with them and have dinner ... I can't blame her.... I knew that she was really having a hard time and didn't know how to deal with it... I kept my calm of course... I didn't want to humiliate her in front of her officemates (did I mentioned that they were also my officemates for several years...). It was just perfect timing, I guess... probably, she was also looking for a way out of it and I was the perfect excuse... She told them that it was getting late and she needs to go home...

Criticisms were thrown here and there... probably some even raised their eyebrows... but who cares... to hell with them... I am happy... I know Cris is happy... Both of us are having the time of our lives... We went to see each other after work... Things got a bit better day after day... She even gave me something... any idea? Well... you have to wait for the next entry from Cris..... ;p